I just wanted to do a quick post to try to get my thoughts focused on what’s right. :o)
I’m thankful for my best friend. His name is Jesus. I don’t always show how much I’m thankful for Him, but He still likes to hang around even though I act like a moron most of the time.
We’ve all probably heard about Him, but I actually got to meet Him about ten years ago. At the time I didn’t know exactly how great of friend He was going to be to me, but He’s been the best one I’ve ever had! (and let me tell ya, I’ve had quite a few since!)
Sometimes I get confused about who my friends are by how much they talk to me, hang out with me, text me, or email me. I get disappointed when I don’t get talked to a lot, but that’s when I forget about Jesus. Nah, he doesn’t text me, but how many friends have you had that writes a whole BOOK for you? That’s pretty cool. :o)
Jesus loves to listen to me talk to Him and He NEVER interrupts. When I’m wrong, He is not afraid to be honest with me, no matter how much I might not like it at the time. It gets rough sometimes, but always worth sharing my heart with Him in the end.
What makes Him such a good friend is His unconditional love for me. It really doesn’t make sense. I’ve tried it on other friends, but being me I just end up feeling hurt. I’m glad Jesus doesn’t let His feelings get in the way. He did some pretty awesome stuff for me. If He had let His feelings get in the way, I’m sure I would be in destruction right now.
I know I hurt His feelings when I take time away from us.
I’m a hypocrite.
I get upset when my other friends make promises to spend time with me or say they are going to do stuff with me, but I don’t think twice about it when I do it to Jesus. I’m sure I hurt His feelings when I leave Him hanging, but He’s always there for me when I come back.
I love to sing about Jesus!
He loves to hear me!
He loves it when I smile…and when I think about Him… I smile too. :o)
I hope He smiles when He thinks of me…
Thank you, Jesus, for being my best friend. Your Nessa doesn't deserve you.
My mom and I are completely opposite in so many ways. It’s almost laughable! Almost…
As of late, I’ve often find myself wishing my mother’s endearing qualities had passed a little bit stronger to me, but in this case, no such luck.
If anyone is around my mother for long, they cannot dismiss the fact that when she does anything, for her family or for her Saviour (see mom, I spelled Saviour with a “u”!) her perfectionism reveals itself. I used to think of her perfectionism as “revealing its ugly head” because perfectionism requires time and patience. Ugh…patience- a trait that I used to find as endearing to practice as first year violin...blah. But now, as I see what redeeming qualities it actually holds, I do see it as something uniquely beautiful.
It makes her even more beautiful.
God gets all the glory out of the work my mother does. She knows, understands, and appreciates the life God has saved her from. Her love for her Saviour isn’t just shown through the words she speaks, but through her actions and the spirit of her actions. This is a magnificent picture of Christ to me, because this was how His love was demonstrated for all of us. It wasn’t just shown by the words He preached, but by the action of His dying for you and for me. He did it in love. It took time. It took unbelievable sacrifice. It was the ultimate sacrifice.
My mom dies all the time too. She dies to self. That is what patience and perfectionism requires, and it really is what God requires of all His saints.
I Corinthians 10:31 “Whether therefore you eat, or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.”
Thank you, mom, for being this shining example to your daughter. I really covet the ease you have of putting the cloak of selflessness on. I love you much.
Today I had a really good day, so I’m kind of hesitant to do a blog post, cause they usually end up being really deep and well, deeeeep. Thought I was going to say depressing, eh? ;o) lol
Alas, all good things must come to end, right? *Whoever said that was a die-hard pessimist. Bleck*
Well, what is going through this lil head of mine? Well...what photo equipment I should get…the soon to be visit of my dearest nieces and nephew...if my new wheel covers will stay on all summer... if my garden is going to survive my inexperienced TLC.
Okaaaay…maybe “what going through this lil head of mine” was the wrong question. How about “what’s laying heavy on my heart right now?”
Umm…really? That was a loaded question. What isn’t laying on my heart right now?
God has been so good to me, yet I feel that despite His goodness, I seem to never be able to express any adequate proportions of gratitude in my life, whether it be via actions or thoughts of praise and worship.
Talk about selfishness…
Hmm…is that what I really want to talk about right now- my pride and selfishness? Eh…no. Not really. Not only cause it hurts and takes a lot of deep self-examination, but because I don’t understand it all…but it is weighing heavy on my heart. I want to understand it.
One of the things that really weighs heavy on my heart, right now, is my walk with Christ, and my testimony- what it was and what it is now. I know, quite a broad topic, but a topic I don’t go a day without thinking about.
Maybe that is my problem. I keep looking back, and its keeping me from going forward. I constantly get disappointed in myself-and not in the constructive way.
Not only do I deal with my own disappointment, but with the failing of expectations others have in me.
How do I know they are disappointed in me?
Some things are just obvious.
How does a child know they are in trouble? It could be in a look they are given. It also could be in the tension in the air, or even in verbal reproof.
This is how I know.
Again, should this concern me?
I should be learning to deal with Someone else’s disappointments, and judgments on my life.
Not my own.
Not other’s.
But Christ’s.
Does He constantly compare me to what I was a year and a half ago to what I am now?
Isaiah 43:25
“I, even I, am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake, and will not remember thy sins.”
Well, this explains He will not remember my sins, but I don’t know if this exactly answers my question.
I don’t think God is in the business of constantly comparing, so neither should I.
I should not compare myself to what other’s are, what other’s want me to be, what I “was” or what I want to be.
I John 3:19-21
“And hereby we know that we are of the truth, and shall assure our hearts before him. For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things. Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, then have we confidence toward God.”
Hmmm….
I guess, my focus is all wrong.
Obviously.
There is only one whose opinion of myself that I should be concerned to live by. If I live by it, it shouldn’t really matter then what me, myself, I, and others think.
That one is God.
What does God compare me to?
Himself.
Where does that put me?
Romans 3:23
“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;”
It puts me with everyone else…short of God’s glory.
Two years ago, I was short of God’s glory.
Still am today.
No matter which way I look at it, I will ALWAYS be short in comparison.
But God is still good to me.
I should do what He wants me to do.
Romans 13:11-14
“The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying. But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof.”
I just need to keep going on. Stop comparing and realize I just need to keep oressing on.
Galatians 5:1
“Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.”
