Dare to Compair

Today I had a really good day, so I’m kind of hesitant to do a blog post, cause they usually end up being really deep and well, deeeeep.  Thought I was going to say depressing, eh?  ;o) lol

Alas, all good things must come to end, right? *Whoever said that was a die-hard pessimist. Bleck*

Well, what is going through this lil head of mine? Well...what photo equipment I should get…the soon to be visit of my dearest nieces and nephew...if my new wheel covers will stay on all summer... if my garden is going to survive my inexperienced TLC.

Okaaaay…maybe “what going through this lil head of mine” was the wrong question. How about “what’s laying heavy on my heart right now?”

Umm…really? That was a loaded question. What isn’t laying on my heart right now?

God has been so good to me, yet I feel that despite His goodness, I seem to never be able to express any adequate proportions of gratitude in my life, whether it be via actions or thoughts of praise and worship.   

Talk about selfishness…

Hmm…is that what I really want to talk about right now- my pride and selfishness? Eh…no. Not really. Not only cause it hurts and takes a lot of deep self-examination, but because I don’t understand it all…but it is weighing heavy on my heart. I want to understand it.

One of the things that really weighs heavy on my heart, right now, is my walk with Christ, and my testimony- what it was and what it is now.  I know, quite a broad topic, but a topic I don’t go a day without thinking about.

Maybe that is my problem. I keep looking back, and its keeping me from going forward. I constantly get disappointed in myself-and not in the constructive way. 

Not only do I deal with my own disappointment, but with the failing of expectations others have in me.   

How do I know they are disappointed in me? 

Some things are just obvious. 

How does a child know they are in trouble?  It could be in a look they are given.  It also could be in the tension in the air, or even in verbal reproof.

This is how I know.

Again, should this concern me?

I should be learning to deal with Someone else’s disappointments, and judgments on my life.   

Not my own. 

Not other’s.

But Christ’s. 

Does He constantly compare me to what I was a year and a half ago to what I am now?

Isaiah 43:25


“I, even I, am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake, and will not remember thy sins.”

Well, this explains He will not remember my sins, but I don’t know if this exactly answers my question.

I don’t think God is in the business of constantly comparing, so neither should I.

I should not compare myself to what other’s are, what other’s want me to be, what I “was” or what I want to be.

I John 3:19-21

“And hereby we know that we are of the truth, and shall assure our hearts before him. For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things. Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, then have we confidence toward God.”

Hmmm….

I guess, my focus is all wrong.

Obviously.

There is only one whose opinion of myself that I should be concerned to live by. If I live by it, it shouldn’t really matter then what me, myself, I, and others think.

That one is God.

What does God compare me to?

Himself.

Where does that put me?

Romans 3:23

“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;”

It puts me with everyone else…short of God’s glory. 

Two years ago, I was short of God’s glory. 

Still am today.

No matter which way I look at it, I will ALWAYS be short in comparison.

But God is still good to me.

I should do what He wants me to do.

Romans 13:11-14

“The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying. But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof.”

I just need to keep going on. Stop comparing and realize I just need to keep oressing on.

Galatians 5:1

“Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.”

Sounds like a good idea to me.




What do you think?